Get Your Hands Dirty

When the year started, I signed up for this 52 Dares challenge. Each week you get an email from Erin, who is the genius behind this idea, with your dare for the week. You get 52 dares for the 52 weeks of the year. So far, it's taken me a little bit outside my comfort zone, but not too far. I've opened up a bit and did things I never thought I would do a year ago. These dares have turned into the thing that keeps me on my toes every week, and fulfilling them feels incredibly refreshing. I literally high five myself every time I get them done. *high five* 

This week's dare is to make art, get in touch with my inner child and get just get creative. I've always loved to get my hands dirty in the paint, spices, and even sand and mud. I seem to always find a sense of relief and solace when I see and feel the pigment on between my hands and fingers. It feels nice and disgustingly gooey, but good gooey, not bad gooey. Is that weird? 

So when the dare popped up, I thought I'd paint. It's been a while since I last painted and I was pretty ecstatic to listen to the child we never grew out of and just paint my feelings out. 

When I was done I felt so refreshed and happy that the painting didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would. 

What is it? I don't really know...but what I do know is that while I was painting it I could feel the weight of stress and anxiety just seep out through the brush. I started out angry with the blacks and reds, then moved to my indecisiveness and envy for others with the greens and blues, and finally I could see some light with the yellows seeping out through the cracks between all the colors and the top of the canvas that portrays the fact that there will always be a light to show you a way out  

When I first looked at it from afar, It kind of looks like a person with long red hair sitting down or playing a guitar. Don't you think?

Have you gotten intact with your inner child lately 

and just aimlessly scribbled on a piece of paper?

Give it a go, it can feel really good. :)